I thought about Killing Myself!

There has been something that has trouble me in recent days.  I have been beyond bother.  A girl all but 12 years old in the next town thought about killing herself and succeeded.  I have heard many stories or why she would do this.  I heard bully, and then I heard no way no bullying was involved. 

Looking back on my own life I think there was several times in my adolescence I thought about killing myself.  Why, would I think this way as a kid well many reason I was bullied, shy and quiet.  Yes, I do not appear this way nowadays but, it is true.  I had no one that care or ask the right question about being bullied amongst other things that happen in my life.  I had parents and many adults in my life that were self absorbed, little education and apparently inexperience and too young to know anything about "Bullies".  However, I did have dear friends that I loved and made me feel good about being "me"!  I never dare share my secret life of being bullied with many of my friends but, did I need to it was obvious.  I know if my friends knew my secret they would have stepped in and played a role in preventing the bully or prevent me to unstable of being a victim.  My friend and the unconditional love they gave me made me who I am today.  The Faith they had in me was so strong, I felt I could be and doing anything.  I just wish this young lady had it and I just hope my daughter has it and all my girls I teach do. 

I wonder since hearing about this young girl death if she had friends, were her parents like mine, did many see the bullying and turn their cheek to say, " kids are being kids"!  I strongly believe nowadays," It takes a village to raise a child"!  I hope and pray that many watch over and guide my children to make right choices and to protect them.  I work many hours and wish and pray to God everyday I could be more active in their lives but, it is not my reality so I pray others would help.  I pray others would watch all our children-no child should ever feel like they have no where to turn, no where to go. 

I challenge each of you to talk to a child, find out what they love, hate, adore, aspire. etc.  I challenge you all to turn off -get off the grid and look into the eyes of a child or someone and ask them what makes them tick, what are their dreams, wishes, hopes, goals.